So I’ve been taking my temp and peeing on a lot of OPKs this past week, but no signs of ovulation. Last week, Dr. H pointed out my thick lining and small follicles and guessed that maybe I had just ovulated. Which would be fine, except that it was only CD10. I hadn’t even started testing for ovulation yet this cycle. That would be way earlier than normal.
All the OPKs this week came back negative – the test line dark, but definitely not “positive dark.” I can usually see the line fade in and get progressively darker over a few days time. So when I saw the somewhat dark line the day after my appointment, I kept expecting to see it darken the next day. But alas, the last two days it actually lightened quite a bit.
Also, no temp spikes.
So this means either I didn’t ovulate at all this month or I released an egg really early and caught my LH on its downward journey. Oh yeah, except that my temperature didn’t spike. What the hell is going on down there ovaries??
I went in to have blood drawn today for a progesterone check. I should know tomorrow whether I released an egg or not this cycle. I’m not too concerned about it right now. I know we’re not inseminating next month, so we have some time to figure it all out.
In other news, we had a long discussion about becoming foster parents. It’s something I’ve thought about for a long time. A part of me feels guilty for putting so much effort and money into creating a tiny human when there are so many tiny (and less tiny) humans out there that need loving homes. We sat down the other day and realized this is something we both really want to do. S suggested we focus on TTC for now and start the foster parent certification process in 1 year. I’m not sure I want to wait that long but for now, that’s our plan. We’ll see how the TTC process goes and then this time next year, we’ll see if we can help out some other kiddos. It’s not our back-up plan either. This is something we’ll do regardless of whether we’re able to conceive a baby or not.
For some reason, I feel so much calmer about this whole process now. I do love the idea of being pregnant, growing a human, and raising a baby. But I’m also really excited about finding alternative ways to have a family.