Here we are. Halfway through our first 2WW. In the months leading up to insemination, I thought, “I’m not going to be one of those women who spend the entire two weeks over analyzing every possible pregnancy symptom.”
Haaaaahahahahahahaaaaha. That’s hilarious.
Let’s be real, I am totally over analyzing every.possible.symptom. I started crying one morning because I couldn’t decide what to wear to work. I only stopped crying because I thought, “ooh, I’m crying, is this a sign?” Any tiny bit of indigestion and I’m wondering if it’s because I’m pregnant. Was that a cramp I just felt? Was that implantation? If I smell a strong odor, I wonder “does everyone smell it this strongly or has my sense of smell become more sensitive?” And come on, I work in downtown San Francisco – it’s a pretty smelly city. This symptom spotting needs to stop. Today I had zero symptoms, so I’m leaning toward IUI#1 not working. My brain knows the odds of it working the first time are small, but damn, someone needs to explain that to the rest of my body.
We’re not testing until Wednesday, August 12 or 14DPIUI. No early tests. Mostly because I think I’d be devastated to see multiple negatives. If it’s negative, I just wanna see that once. Then I’ll have a couple glasses of wine, go for a nice hard run, and then move on to the next round.